Despite Years Of Abuse, Tiffany Haddish Says She Wants To Take Care Of Her Schizophrenic Mom

If anyone is having a great year, it's Girls Trip actress Tiffany Haddish!

Not only did she recently win Best Supporting Actress from the New York Film Critics Circle, but she made history hosting Saturday Night Live this month AND has three new movies coming out next year. 

Oh...and did we mention that she's also dropping her first memoir!

In the upcoming The Last Black Unicorn, Haddish's life is an open book--literally--as she keeps it real about her hellish childhood and suffering abuse from her mentally ill mother. 

According to PEOPLE, who received an exclusive first look at her memoir, the 37-year-old wrote that her schizophrenic mother, “told [her] every day I’d never be nothing. Now I look in the mirror and say, ‘Tiffany Haddish, I love and approve of you.’ It was all worth it.”

Haddish also writes that the abuse worsened after her mother was involved in a car accident that caused brain damage.

“After the accident, oh my God, she would say the worst things to me, like ‘You look like your ugly ass daddy, I hate him. I hate you,'" Haddish recalled.

“She couldn’t get all her words out, so she’d just punch me. Just full on. Because of her I can take a punch like nobody’s business. Teachers would ask, ‘Why’s Tiffany’s lip busted?’ I didn’t say anything. As bad as she was to me, I still couldn’t help but love her.”

But despite all of those years of abuse and having to live in and out of foster care homes, Haddish admits that she still loves her mother and wants to take care of her.

“My mom is still alive, in a mental institution,” she explains.

“[And] my goal is to get enough money to buy a duplex. I want to put her in one of the units and hire a full-time nurse to take care of her. Then I want to get her whatever medications she needs so she can be my mama again. Honestly, that’s all I really want in life.”

The comedienne also talked about her abusive ex-husband, the high school sweetheart she married and divorced twice.

“The relationship got violent. Once at a comedy festival, Tom Green comes over and he is making me laugh so hard. My ex-husband grabbed me. He was like ‘It’s time to go now.’ I had a knot on the side of my head from where he slammed me into the wall and marks on my throat where he’d dug in his nails."

She continued, "When I got onstage, everyone could tell I had been beaten. All those people wanted to help, but all I could do was push them away, and then go back to the dude that was abusing me. Why? Maybe I didn’t know any other way to be loved.”

Yo...that's a lot. 

We're glad that Tiffany is out there living her best life and speaking her truth!

Interested in reading her new book? The Last Black Unicorn hits stores on Dec. 5.